No, it... it isn't something you need to apologize for. It's just a little hard to take in.

[ She's already dreading having to explain it to the children. A few of the older children seemed to have understood that something had happened even if they didn't know what. But some of the younger children, so used to their routine had asked her why there was no prayer, no mass and Narmaya still doesn't know what sort of answer to give them. ]

How have you been handling it? I've heard it all second hand, but you had to come face to face with it. It can't have been easy.