It might to the others. I’m not a good frame of reference for this particular subject, I’m afraid.
[Jay’s tone is light, but his expression is a bit more complex. He’s well aware that this is a problem. It is the problem with him. He knows that his way of thinking isn’t normal; that there is something deeply and fundamentally wrong with him. But what can he do? It's simply how he is, how he has always remembered being.
"You said that without battin' an eyelash. Come on, it's gotta bug you a little." "Not particularly. If I decide to do it, then I will." "You gotta have ice water runnin' through your veins."
What an annoying insult, from Moses of all people, to still be bothering him. It just goes to show that a broken clock can be right twice a day; that even someone as stupid as Moses can blunder his way into actually getting under Jay’s skin, if he’s careless enough to hand over the blade.]
It annoys me that everyone will know, now, but there isn't much the rest of you can do with it while we're still imprisoned. [Jay's mouth briefly settles into a thin line. Under normal circumstances, he would simply lie. But Brook was close enough to him to hear his initial reaction. There's no point.] Yes, it is. I go to a great deal of trouble to communicate with clients strictly by anonymous letters-- that's why I'm called "the Unseen". There aren't many who can connect my name and my work to my face.
[He used to be able to count the people who knew who he was and what he did on just one hand. There still aren't many (even after everything, he's managed to keep the total below twenty) but every new introduction brings a little more risky. It's sloppy. He's become complacent, after joining Senel and the rest of his ragtag little group.]
no subject
[Jay’s tone is light, but his expression is a bit more complex. He’s well aware that this is a problem. It is the problem with him. He knows that his way of thinking isn’t normal; that there is something deeply and fundamentally wrong with him. But what can he do? It's simply how he is, how he has always remembered being.
"You said that without battin' an eyelash. Come on, it's gotta bug you a little." "Not particularly. If I decide to do it, then I will." "You gotta have ice water runnin' through your veins."
What an annoying insult, from Moses of all people, to still be bothering him. It just goes to show that a broken clock can be right twice a day; that even someone as stupid as Moses can blunder his way into actually getting under Jay’s skin, if he’s careless enough to hand over the blade.]
It annoys me that everyone will know, now, but there isn't much the rest of you can do with it while we're still imprisoned. [Jay's mouth briefly settles into a thin line. Under normal circumstances, he would simply lie. But Brook was close enough to him to hear his initial reaction. There's no point.] Yes, it is. I go to a great deal of trouble to communicate with clients strictly by anonymous letters-- that's why I'm called "the Unseen". There aren't many who can connect my name and my work to my face.
[He used to be able to count the people who knew who he was and what he did on just one hand. There still aren't many (even after everything, he's managed to keep the total below twenty) but every new introduction brings a little more risky. It's sloppy. He's become complacent, after joining Senel and the rest of his ragtag little group.]